Every now and again, we grow tired of the lives we lead and decide to change things up. For me, this happens more or less yearly, and I dedicate a lot of effort into changing something that I’m unhappy with. Some years, I succeed, other years, not so much. There’s usually a theme, whether mental or physical, and it often has to do with whatever it is that I’m currently fascinated about – I get these weird obsessions now and again that I feel I have to entertain. Most of the time, that’s also the reason the changes don’t stick; the thing I decided to change is related to a temporary obsession.
I’ve been suffering through a bunch of stress related issues these past three months, and am finding myself in a much better place now. It’s becoming more and more obvious to me that I now have the opportunity to start working on myself and making a couple of changes so as to not end up here again. I’ve been revisiting the thought for a couple of days now, and every single time, it crystallises just a little bit further. Here are my goals for the remainder of the year. I hope to get into the habit of most of these by July, if not sooner:
- Quit smoking. I picked this bad habit up again when I was dating a girl last summer, despite having been clean for three or four years. It’s a silly and expensive habit, and it’s time to put it aside.
- Quit energy drinks. They say caffeine gives all the superficial effects of ADHD medication, and I’ve been self-medicating with enormous amounts of caffeine on a daily basis for twenty years. With some luck, I might end up on real ADHD medication later this year, at which point the self-medication with caffeine will be less relevant. Even if I don’t, I still need to quit these things, they’re a terrible source of energy and aren’t good for my kidneys.
- Eat more food. I get distracted easily and sometimes forget meals. It was easier when I had a live-in girlfriend, as she was far better at these things than me. Left to my own devices, I might sleep the extra hour and skip breakfast, then be stuck in front of a computer solving the world’s problems in the evenings and forget all about dinner until it’s too late to eat. I always eat a huge lunch, but that just won’t cut it any longer.
- Run and train more. I fractured two ribs this winter and had to stop my strength training. Now that I’ve healed back up, I don’t really have an excuse any longer. I need to get back into the habit.
- Sleep more. Most nights, I sleep an average of four to five hours, then sleep through the entire weekend as my body is exhausted. That just won’t do.
- Meditate. I’m getting back into the habit of meditation, but I often forget for days on end, averaging maybe one or two sessions a week. This needs to be a daily routine for me.